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Sunday, April 15, 2007
~~-i tHoUgHt oF HiM-~~

guess wad. i thought of him again. yes my 2nd ex. errr haix. i hab been thinking of him. of wad he had done to me. all da good. i dun see dere's any bad of him. but i chosen to end up da r/s. becos i dun wanna hurt him. and in da end he chose not to contact wid me. well. i found his friendster acct. but i asked for advice. my fren had advised me not to msg him. cos he will be more hurt. like "last time u left mi ..now u come back and find mi... who am i to u lehx". ya. it's true. i dun wanna hurt him more. it will bring him back to memory 1. and this will make him more sad. he had done so much for me. i couldn tell my parents. he kept secret for me. send me to bus stop only. da 1st moment we met he gave me a necklace. so sweet. yes. he's someone whom i noe frm irc. yes. and we b4 met we had been together. yes. but he so nice. he carried things for me. when i was performing at ucc. he came down dere to meet me. dat's da 1st time he see me. and he took cab down dere. den send me to lot 1. walk walk den carry my things. den send me home to bus stop. den gave me a necklace and put it on for me. i felt so sweet then. den we would owas sms to tok and he called me every night to tok to me. when even playing soccer. and his friends ard to di siao him. haha. well dat's funny his frens and dey tok to me too. hmmm. den when we went out he owas offered to carry things for me. how nice of him. i remember once his back kena bang by da door at shopping centre to protect me. i felt hurt. i do. haix. though it's not so strong but da door is heavy k. =.= den oso when i went performing. he would go down to da performing place to fetch me home. cos quite late le. even b4 i went dere. he will acc me 1st to go sch and wait for sch bus. and he dun mind dat i couldn say out. he owas sent me to bus stop only. =/ haix really zhen de hao. den when i study for O levels he will ask me study. den he even came down to acc me study abit and forced me to eat =.= cos i nv eat when study ma den wan me eat. den fed me. gosh. =.=

haix i type so much here cos i wanna left footprint here wid his doings for me in da past. cos he chose to stop contacting after i broke up wid him. sigh. cos i wanna concentrate on my studies. it hurt him alot. it did. i noe. all da wonders he had done i felt so good yet i dun wish to hurt him further. hmmm. and i found him in friendster. cos i remember his email. but i was so sad when i saw pictures dat he held a cigarette. he didn smoke last time de. but why? he now had. haix.

i miss him i do. but i cant do anything for now...

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